I always strive to stick to my typical routine during the holidays, but inevitably, I wake up on January 3rd and wonder what exactly I did during the last month and a half. It’s truly remarkable. Did I fall into the black hole that is the Hallmark channel’s cheesy Christmas-movie programming with my dad? I must have. I somehow managed not to journal, blog, or even go to yoga consistently. What happened to me? Maybe too much sugar causes black outs. Or maybe I was totally distracted by Scarlett’s heartfelt love of all things Santa. I am already looking forward to next year when the magic of Santa is even more fantastic. I love Santa.
I didn’t make any New Year’s resolutions this year. I feel that I’m still behind on many of the goals I set out to accomplish in 2011. I’m currently in the throes of self-reinvention, so while I’m trying to make peace with old dreams and goals that really don’t make sense for me anymore, I am also trying to carve out a new life that does make sense. I have a general idea of what I’d like my life to be like, but it does require a few changes on my part. That is why I initially came up with my 40/40 list, but I have been seriously neglecting it for some time now, and it needs an overhaul. I’ve had a few unexpected distractions that have pulled my focus, but I figured that rather than setting even more goals for myself, I should work on those that I’ve already established. I’ve decided to start with 4. Become a good cook.
Yes, this requires that I actually cook. Because I am paralyzed by the idea of ruining dinner and having nothing to serve anyone, cooking is generally completely overwhelming and stressful for me, so I have decided to set small, reasonable goals for myself. I am going to start by cooking one proper dinner a week. I’ve committed to overhauling our family’s Sunday dinner, or lack thereof. Because we’re all so busy, it’s rare that our family sits down more than once a week to eat together, which I feel is important in staying connected to one another. I have yet to decide on the first menu, but I did get a subscription to Vegetarian Times recently, so I have no excuse for lack of inspiration. I’ll let you know what I come up with and how it goes. Wish me luck.